If you’ve been following my blogging journey, (it really isn’t a long one, I only have a couple of posts at this point) then you would know that it all started with embracing freak outs. I had written about how I was going to stop making excuses for things that put me outside of my comfort zone and start embracing the unknown (or as I like to call them, the freak outs).
What I didn’t know when I wrote that post was that I would really be putting my mantra to the test… A MONTH BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS…
As of Monday, I am officially changing schools, districts, and cities (not grade or subject though… I do need SOME sort of consistency in my life). Not only is my school life changing, but my home life is as well. My husband and I are looking for houses closer to his current job and my new job, which means packing up an old classroom, moving into a new one, packing up our home AND moving into a new one.
Now, I would like to clarify that these are all really good things. I am so excited for the change that will come with a new school, new students, new co-workers, new classroom, etc. Also, I can’t wait to get out of apartment living and move into a house with more space! However, all of this change in ONE MONTH is freak out worthy.
I have to remind myself that it is the way in which we approach our freak outs that will determine the outcome.
It isn’t about not freaking out… I mean, that would be pretty impossible, right? (Especially in my situation- there is no way I can’t not freak out!) It’s about how we handle the freak outs; it’s about embracing them. It’s all about perspective.
- stress and worry about the fact that I have one month to completely pack up my old classroom, move it into my new classroom, set up a new classroom, and prepare new curriculum.
- panic because we are moving out of our apartment in one month, and as of right now, do not have a place to live after this month.
- wonder why in the world I am sitting here blogging about all of the things I have to do instead of actually going and doing them. 😂
I could be doing all of those things. To be honest, my initial reactions to all of these freak outs were these things. But then I stopped for a moment to take a new perspective on these situations.
- Yes, moving classrooms in one month is really cutting it close. Isn’t it awesome though that we (my new students and myself) have a new space to make our own? Isn’t this a great time to re-think classroom design and try new things? My new students deserve me at my best, and I plan to give them just that!
- Yes, the possibility of not having a home in one month did cause some panic in me, but I know that we’ll figure it out (if not, it’s a good thing my parents have some extra space in their house). I need to recognize how blessed we are to even be looking at houses and take in this house-hunting experience.
- Yes, realistically, I don’t need to be here blogging about my freak outs, but I am. I am because I enjoy it- it’s a way for me to relieve stress and make sense of everything going on in my head.
I wish that I could say that this spark of perspective hit me on my own, but it didn’t; I needed reminders from some very important people in my life.
My husband reminded me that although I’ll be entering a new city, district, and school, there will still be kids there who need me.
The superintendent of my previous district, who has been a mentor for me through this entire process, basically told me I need to snap out of it. “You might have some crazy things going on, but you also have some crazy things to be excited about!”
My previous principal, who supported me during this journey, constantly reminded me of the value and importance of family. Leaving my current school was not an easy decision, but I know it will be the best for my family.
I am so thankful for the support that I have received throughout all of this change and throughout all of these freak outs.
What I am most appreciative of is the reminder from others to shift my perspective. Again, freak outs are inevitable; there are bound to be things in life that will require us to change or journey into the unknown. It’s about the way we approach the freak outs that matter.
Here’s to a great year of shifting perspectives and truly embracing the freak outs.